Dancing In The Rain
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
I know it's been a while since I've posted anything bt this is not a happy post. It's gonna be sad and depressing and full of tears.
I just received a text from my friend. She said it was one of the hardest decision she's ever made in her life. She said she put her dog down. I don't know why but when I saw that text I just burst into tears. Thanks heavens I was alone in my room.
I mean, I haven even seen Fluffy before, only in pictures. But I could tell how much my friend loved her. She's been her dog for 11 years. ELEVEN fucking years. Fluffy has been sick for like 2 weeks already and we all know she wouldn't make it bt still. She's always saying how she would not put fluffly down cz there is always a chance for her to get better and she believes in miracles.
It just makes me wonder. Who the hell are we to determine whether the animal or pet is to live or to die. Humans don't even have the right to die (it's a crime to commit suicide) so why do we dictate it for animals? They have feeling too. They just can't say it out loud like we do.
I've always thought of this issue. They say if u love them u'll let them go. Sometimes I wonder if my Darling Boy gets too sick and the vet asks me what to do. Whether I want to put it down or not. Save him from his pain. I love him so so much. But I just don't know whether I love him enough to let him go. Maybe I'm just being selfish. I want him to always be with me but I know it's not possible.
And for my friend to make that decision, I think she is so fucking brave. In a way I am proud of her for being able to make the decision but at the same time I am angry as well. What if with more time Fluffy could actually get better? We wouldn't know now would we?
Ugghh, I don't even know what to think anymore. I'm gonna have a nice hot chocolate and eat chocolate chip cookies and not think about it anymore. It makes me very upset.
And she survived.. ;