Dancing In The Rain
Saturday, November 27, 2010
I know, long time no see.
Been obssessed with gym lately. Cause hot muscular guys are prowling around there. Yummy~ and there's this guy who works in the reception likes me. Sexy Italian dude motivating me to go gym almost daily but i don't know his name though. He might have told me before but I think I forgot and he has a name tag but then it has the italian flag colour on it so I can barely read it without staring at his chest like some pervert. His muscular chest LOL
Currently at work tattoo hunting again. I really have no idea what i wanna do. No wait, I know what I wanna do. It's just i have tooooo many kinds I wanna get!
1. Vie Amour Rire - Live Love Laugh (french)
Live life to the fullest, Love like I've never been hurt before and Laugh everyday.
2. Quod Me Nutrit Me Destruit - What nourishes me also destroys me (Latin)
There's good and bad in everything in life. Too much of something and it'll become negative. It also means 'What doesn't kill me makes me stronger'.
3. I rather laugh with the sinners than cry with the saints
I believe i have to try everything. And i do mean everything. Even if it's sins. I've sin so much that I'm pretty damn sure I'll go to hell.
Well unless like Duckie said, bottles of alcohol as angels that judge us, then there is a slight possiblilty of me going in to heaven and kicking back with angels while sipping Margaritas. And I love sinning. It feeeels goooood to sin. Rules are meant to be broken, not followed.
4. Omnia Causa Fiunt- Everything happens for a reason (Latin)
It means alot to me cause I strongly believe in that. In a way it also means 'Good things fall apart so better things can fall in place' and I'm a strong believer in that.
It also means to look for the silver lining in the cloud and to look at the glass as half full instead of half empty. Be positive. Be optimistic.
I've always been looking at life as half full anyway. Like if I were to lost my purse with $200 in it, I'd think well at least I didn't lose my whole handbag. Like when my grandma passed away, of course I was sad and cried like hell, but I think of her finally getting peace and being with my grandpa instead of her leaving us.
Or if I were paralyzed waist down from an accident, I'd know it happens for a reason. I'm sure God doesn't want me to suffer, He just have different plans for me. I just have to figure it out.
Oh btw, that last sentence might seem like I'm a super spritual person, I'm actually not. I believe there's a God and everyone's God is the same one. I just don't rely on him much. Like some people I know, when exams are coming, he'd pray instead of studying. And when he gets an average mark, he'd say God wanted me to get this score. WTF?? Seriously stupid. I feel like saying God doesn't help you with exams you idiot, but i didn't wanna get into a debate with him cz he is seriously religious.
5. Memento Mori- Remember that you will die (Latin)
Reminds me of mortality and no matter what we do, how much we earn, we still die in the end. We are all equals in death no matter how much power you had in life or how rich or poor you are. And to remind me that one day I'll die, so live life to the fullest and don't regret so much.
Look at this pic! Isn't the baby dolphin cuuuutttteeeeee????
And she survived.. ;
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
I look like crap here but this is the only pic i've got lol
And she survived.. ;
This is how I look when I am reading 3 of my previous reports in order to write this current one. Oh and about 15 different articles.
I have to learn all this languages to say 'fuck you, report'. It says in Malay Fuck you is Yet Meh. WTF is yet meh?? I thought is pukima or smtg like that?
Seriously, I am running out of time and yet here I am blogging. It's not due till Fri 5pm but then thurs I'm going to the races ALL DAY and I've got work on fri till 3pm. So I MUST finish this bloody report by tmr night. If not. I'll die. Oh and fail too.
Procrastination is a deadly disease. It's ok if it is only 1500 words or below but NOT for 3 motherfucking thousand words. I got like 26 hours left and around 2600 words to write. If I have a clue on what to write it'd be quite alright but then I have absolutely NO idea what I wanna write. I have to write a best practice for a training program for Hilton employees. I could bullshit my way through it except I can't because this report would be shown to my manager as an improvement to the current training plan. So yeah, no bullshitting allowed.
That aside, I've been doing alot of thinking and alot of talking with my roomie. We both agree that making plans for the future is a bad idea. I hate it when someone asks me where do you see yourself in 5 years time. 'Uhh.. I don't know. Dead?' Cz i really don't know. I won't stay in this industry for long so no point telling ppl 'I wanna be a hotel manager!' like a fucking retard.
One of the reason I joined this industry cz I hate business, I don't have the brain nor commitment to study medicine or law and I think engineering is a bore. No offence ppl. Moreover, I like this industry cause I can travel. Since studying, I've stayed in 2 resort island which was WONDERFUL and I came to aussie and met so many amazing ppl. I still wanna travel around the world. My plans in the near future includes, going to NZ and UK. Then I might travel and work through Europe.
I'll do this until I'm ready to settle down then I'll either quite hospitality completely or become a lecturer. But prolly I'll quit cz teaching young adults? Nah.. Then I wanna work with children. I think they are the most amazing little human beings in the world. I like their naivety, innocence and how they view the world.
When they see oil on the road, they see a rainbow, we avoid them cz it's dirty. When they see puddles after rain, they see an opportunity for fun but we see wet soaked sneakers. They are so open cz they never knew what hurt is. They tell everyone everything cz they have no secrets. How did we lose our innocence and trust somewhere along the road of growing up?
Children are amazing. But then I only like them from baby till 5yo. Cz after that they are pretty much annoying LOL Honestly, before going into this industry, I thought of becoming a nanny in the US but then you need experience and I was waaay too young and immature then.
If I'm gonna change industry then I've gotta study again. I might do ECE or smtg like that so I can work with small kids like teaching them how to paint or colour lol
And she survived.. ;