Dancing In The Rain
Sunday, November 15, 2009
This is exactly what i've been afraid of. I everytime i leave KL, this is the exact thing i'm damn fucking worried of. Langkawi was just 3 months and 1 hour flight away and so was Redang. But now, i'm so freaking far away and i didn't see her for months and i'm worried sick. Until everytime i think about it i can't help but expect the worst and get reminded all over again of smtg that happened not too long ago.
Media paper is tmr and i can't freaking concentrate on my notes. I keep thinking bout it every 2 seconds. I keep telling myself that i'm probably overthinking things and that everything would be fine but it's not. No matter how many time i tell myself that, it's not fucking fine unless i see her myself. And now, i've been told she went into the hospital. But they don't know what's wrong yet. And there's nothing i can do except pray. Pray that she's really fine . Pray that she's weak cz she hasn't been eating well. Cause she's damn healthy. She's not sick or anything. And i just don't understand why. I don't know what happened.
You know the feeling where you are in a dark room with not even a silver of light and you're fumbling around looking for a switch, a way out. That's exactly how i feel. I want to see her so badly and i have not even the faintest idea what is actually going on. All i know is she's weak, she fell down alot and now she under observations in the hospital. And i don't like being in the dark. I fucking hate the dark. You should know i even sleep with a fucking night light. I'm this close to jumping on the next plane back to msia.
I love u
I've already lost one this year and i'm definitely not gonna lose another one.
And she survived.. ;