Dancing In The Rain
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
Heart this skirt. It feels so 70's or something. I keep telling myself "No Carmen, no more shopping for u" and look at what I bought? If this keeps up, along with clubbing, I think no vacation for me next year where I am suppose to go China and Thailand =(
As much as I love being around people, I also love being alone. Now, every Wed after my french class I'll go to this cafe and have a skinny cappuccino and a slice of cake while reading the day's newspaper. My friend said I sound so european haha cz apparently that's what they do there in the afternoon.
Another friend said why I sound so lonely? Some people just don't understand that having alone time is just precious. I'm surrounded by people all the freaking time even at home. It's nice but really all I want is some quiet time to unwind. Especially after a loooong tiring week.
And really, what's a girl gotta do to make a guy STOP being interested in me?? Honestly, I'm fucking annoyed with him. I told him I've got a bf (NO denise I don't!). Common sense would tell u to back the fuck off right? And yet, he still asks me when is my off days and what am I doing. Hello, even if i'm dead bored, I still wouldn't go for coffee or movie or dinner with you alright? I rather die being bored at home. One day, I should just say "I'm busy cause i'll be fucking my bf 48 hours straight." Maybe that will finally put him off.
And what's wrong with being single? Everyone I meet ask me whether I've got a bf or not and when I say no, they go "Oh, that can't be true! Why is a pretty girl like you single?" Thanks for the compliment but is it illegal to be single now? Then they'll see the ring I have on my ring finger and ask me why do I have a ring then?
I guess the ring symbolizes independence to me. I've drooled over this particular ring for years (YEARS!!) but my mom won't buy it for me. And I didn't want any bf to get it for me too cz I love this ring way to much for it to be a gift from someone who I would prolly separate from later. I don't want any boys tainting this ring. Cause imagine if a guy gave it to me and we broke up. Everytime I look at the ring i'll think of him= NOT GOOD. And, this is the very first item I allow myself to indulge with my first pay check ever. So this ring means ALOT to me. Cause I want to achieve things myself and not depend on other to get it for me.
Alright, I've gotta go out for dinner now.
And she survived.. ;